Full circles

Handover for astro took place two days ago, 25th may, while handover for odac took place a week ago, 18th may. And the thing about coming to the end of smthing is that it always make u think of what u've done while u were involved in it, whether u hav met ur targets, ur objectives, if u hav any at all. or at least that's for me and some of the slightly more emo ppl. the more nonchalant ones will simply be like, yay, it's over, time to move on in life.

But for these ppl, i must say, just, spare a thought, just a moment or two, and think about what u've done, what you've achieved. Most of us should be nearing the end of our terms in our ccas, or like me, hav ended our terms in our ccas. so just spend a little time, and think. what hav u done? what hav u gotten out of it? what hav u achieved? It can be anything, be it a trophy, or simply additional friendships. and think about whether it had been ur target. whether there has been any shortcomings. and learn frm ur mistakes. don't ever repeat them next time.

For me, both my terms hav not been good. but they hav not been that bad either. let's start with astro. it's a cca that's too small to hav much a credibility. i took a look at the number of j2s when i first joined astro, and decided not to join the exco, despite knowing that with nearly the whole j2 exco being my friends frm ri sci club, i was virtually guaranteed of almost any position i want in astro. my point was that the j2s who turn up for astro session were all exco, not a single member. It goes to show how sad astro is. Those who did not make it to exco are simply not bothered wif it anymore. The farewell was all exco ppl, what rubbish. What's a cca wif no members?

I wanted to change that. I had hoped that by showing that members do still turn up and help out, other members will follow suit as well. I was wrong. With the new exco selected, the remaining candidates who did not get a position, who had spoken so passionately for astro during the election speeches, simply disappeared. completely. All that they had said during those speeches were all lies. just a bunch of lies. I hope they screw up in life next time. bastards.

With that, what i hoped for was all gone. dissipated, gone. and i was left wondering why i had not simply went for a place in exco and get a pretty testimonial. but having nvr ever cared abt how gd my testimonial looks, that tot was soon gone. but it still left a lingering thought. that what i had set out for, what i had hoped to accomplish in the cca, had been a failure. and come ytd, during farewell, it was the same story as last yr's farewell. to be exact, it was even worse. the total strength of the j2s numbered 5. 4 exco and 1 member. impressive.

But at least i know i tried, and i do not hav any regrets. not so much for odac though, but the regret is on a lot more personal level, which i am not abt to reveal on this blog. I may tell closer friends, but such personal stuff do not make it onto blogs generally, so yup. what i say on this blog then, will become no regrets as well. yay.

Odac, a cca viewed by many as a tough and hard one. yet, it wasn't long after i joined odac that i realised that it was nowhere near tough. The amt of pt we hav falls far behind that of other sports grps. and furthermore, most of our trainings are on mondays, which i hav h3 physics during that time. every time i rush off to odac after h3 ends, odac ends in 5 mins time or has ended as well. so i pretty much miss out a lot on odac, since i'm the only person in odac taking h3 physics. This distanced me frm most of the core odac members, since most of my best friends in odac faded off to council, while i faded away frm the remaining due to not seeing them often. yet, i can say that i've made enuff friendships during my time in odac 22. for while the core odac members are close within themselves, there's always a grp as large as the core odac members themselves who are not close to the core odac members as well. Together, this grp forms smthing of an outsiders grp, where we are a somewhat close-knitted bunch. So, my friendships are there, and it enabled me to hav a great and fun time in odac.

Where i learned many things, especially on the australia expedition, where i saw just how much our aussie guides conserved and treasured their environment. pretty much why i took up the topic of nature and animal conservation for gp topic. This, coupled with the many other things i've learned frm odac, have enriched my life, i don't have any regrets.

And with the concluding of both ccas, it has came to the end of one whole year of exciting activities. I'll miss odac very much. But the A-levels loom. and that's one more obstacle to pass. though once that is over, amidst the fun and play and all that, it just means the end of two years of jc, and while i'm sure and hope that many friendships will be preserved, it is nevertheless still sad to be parting ways with many others.

Heck though, studying for A-level is top priority and now, those emo stuff can come later.

And i still want a house that's at least 1/10 of marie's hse. A lot of hard work still needs to be put in.

Anyway, happy bday yt and sc!